& my heart broke

My light bulb is flickering,

And I watched the lines in my grandfather's face grow hard through heartbreak,

& my heart broke. 

And the dew on their grass is just irrigation water,

And I saw a riding mower running over the gravestones of somebody's loved ones,

& my heart broke. 

And I watched him replace me,

And I watched how happy they are,

& my heart broke. 

I'm watching my grandmother's mind fall away,

And I hold her fragile hands close,

But somehow never close enough,

& my heart breaks. 

And I hang my face out the window,

And I scream at the top of my lungs,

And scream through the tears

& my heart breaks way too often to be average,

But these things are how I feel alive. 

Tragically true.