I thought I'd make a how-to
on something I seem to know a lot about
and maybe you're not into that so you've already clicked the back button
but I've learned from experience that
sometimes you have to feel the sad stuff
actually feel it
and probably cry about it
to move on
and shove the tears back in your eyes
how to cry
step one:
think about everything too much
because if you don't,
you'll be just fine
step two:
let your heart sadden,
becoming soggy with the tears that haven't spilled
and choked by the sobbing that's yet to come
step three:
try to keep them in
the teardrops I mean
because for some reason that gives them all the more reason
to fall
step four:
once you're crying
just a little
about the simple sad things
remind yourself of the heartbreaking things
so that your heart can break one more time
now the tears are really flowing
and if someone walked in you'd be hosed
and I know it,
but don't worry I won't tell
step five:
don't try to stop
or else the teardrops will never let you.
just let them wear themselves out
& dry themselves off
& you'll be worn out too
step six:
now you have to sleep.
really, this is mandatory
it's like a giant reset button and when you wake
you won't feel as much
which is ok for a little while.
but then you have to repeat.
because those
relentless teardrops will find you
and eventually
you'll need to release
so,
step seven:
repeat steps one through six
because "pain demands to be felt."
