relentless teardrops

I thought I'd make a how-to

on something I seem to know a lot about

and maybe you're not into that so you've already clicked the back button

but I've learned from experience that

sometimes you have to feel the sad stuff 

actually feel it

and probably cry about it

to move on

and shove the tears back in your eyes

how to cry

step one:
think about everything too much
because if you don't,
you'll be just fine

step two:
let your heart sadden,
becoming soggy with the tears that haven't spilled
and choked by the sobbing that's yet to come

step three:
try to keep them in
the teardrops I mean
because for some reason that gives them all the more reason
to fall

step four:
once you're crying
just a little
about the simple sad things
remind yourself of the heartbreaking things
so that your heart can break one more time

now the tears are really flowing

and if someone walked in you'd be hosed

and I know it,

but don't worry I won't tell

step five:
don't try to stop
or else the teardrops will never let you.
just let them wear themselves out
& dry themselves off
& you'll be worn out too

step six:
now you have to sleep.
really, this is mandatory
it's like a giant reset button and when you wake
you won't feel as much

which is ok for a little while.

but then you have to repeat.
because those relentless teardrops will find you
and eventually
you'll need to release

so,

step seven:
repeat steps one through six

because "pain demands to be felt."