Thursday, September 24, 2015

still breathing

i know i'm human because my mom told me so.

but if that's not enough for you here's some more:

i know i'm human because i've hurt someone
over & over again
& they kept coming back
& i still can't figure out why

i know i'm human because i love spaghetti
& ice cream. 

i know i'm human because i get car sick
& home sick
& love sick
& sick sick

i know im human because i'm allergic to cats
& september 
& rude people

i know i'm human because i cry
all the time
happy tears
& sad tears 
& "i'm fine" tears
(except i'm almost never fine)
& my trash can is full of tears in used tissues

i know i'm human because i spoil my dog
& i get emotional thinking about her dying
then again i get emotional over a lot of things
that's another reason

i know i'm human because i have regrets

i know i'm human because i get quiet when i'm mad
really quiet

i know i'm human because I eat cheerios for dinner & nothing for breakfast

i know i'm human because i love to feel
& read
& laugh
& talk
& cry

i know i'm human because i drive with the windows down
& i drive with my knees more than my left hand
cause it has to be out the window

i know i'm human because i get confused
& i twist words in my head
& hate when other humans do the same

i guess you could call me a hypocrite.

ok, i know i'm human because i'm a hypocrite.

i know i'm human because i get things right
but mostly wrong
& i try to be better...
but mostly wrong.

i know i'm human because i find it hard to breathe way too often to be a robot

i know i'm human because 

i'm

still

breathing
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12 comments:

  1. AnonymousSeptember 24, 2015 at 5:00 PM

    I love every word of this

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  2. Jenna MaeSeptember 24, 2015 at 6:15 PM

    Reminded me why I'm human too because sometimes I forget. Great post.

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  3. GajdosSeptember 24, 2015 at 6:59 PM

    oh my ggoooodnnesss. It's walking dead all over again.

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  4. NelsonSeptember 24, 2015 at 8:22 PM

    The part about finding it hard to breathe. And the opening line. Yes, the opening line.

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  5. rosyln grey ☾September 24, 2015 at 9:48 PM

    I liked so many little parts of this.

    Well done.

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  6. whitneySeptember 25, 2015 at 1:12 PM

    this flowed so well thoooo.
    the part about being allergic to cats and september!? I FEEL U. and the part about getting emotional made me smile cuz zupas:') and also the part about driving with the windows down and ur left hand out the window... i miss you.

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  7. agnes obelSeptember 25, 2015 at 1:55 PM

    this is amazing. love sick and home sick and sick sick.
    absolutely love this.

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  8. AnonymousSeptember 25, 2015 at 2:19 PM

    i honestly get so excited when your name comes up on the creative writing "writers" tab because your blog is like home

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    1. paige smalleySeptember 25, 2015 at 3:49 PM

      "Awww"

      Thank you so much. Coming from you this means a lot!

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  9. Andie LongsonSeptember 27, 2015 at 2:38 PM

    ahhhhhhhhh you are amazing. so much soul and feeling

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  10. Trevor KnorrSeptember 28, 2015 at 5:13 PM

    I really really really love you

    Also "ok, i know i'm human because i'm a hypocrite."
    Was killer

    And "& i drive with my knees more than my left hand
    cause it has to be out the window" is one of those little lines that I just can't get over

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